18 posts tagged “life”

• The move went well.  It was a long drive, and there were some times that Liam was REALLY unhappy.  But overall he handled it well, and it went well also.  I would highly recommend hiring people off craigslist if you need help with packing up your truck for moving instead of through UHaul or whatever truck rental company you go with.  The truck companies were charging around $300 for two guys for two hours.  I go three guys to come for $10/hr.  So ended up just paying $60.  
• Liam is growing so much.  He's sitting up now pretty well.  Though I think there are times when he either gets tired of it, or just isn't in the mood and purposely won't bend his legs, or leans back.  But he'll also sit there and play for a while too.  He's also working on crawling.  He's doing pretty well moving backwards, but has not quite figured out the forward motion part of it.  Yesterday and today he's been getting a little closer though.  I'm thinking by next week, assuming we practice it with him.
• It has been HOT.  And it makes me not even want to leave the house cause I don't have air conditioning in my car right now.  I don't like arriving places looking all sweaty.  
• Liam had ANOTHER virus.  I guess at 6 months all the immunities that he got from me are gone basically.  The doctor I took him to said to expect that he'll get sick more often now.  Just in time for us to have no insurance!  Yay!
• I am only a few pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight.  Turns out that even though it is not too great for your checkbook, unemployment is good for the waistline.  No more sitting at a desk all day.
• I am loving being home with Liam again.  I don't know how long it will last, but I'm hoping that I can stay with him until the end of the year, and he turns one at least.  Ideally, I'd like to stay with him the first few years until he goes to preschool, but I'm not sure if that will work out.  Still hoping though.
• It's been great living back up here so far.  I'm enjoying getting to see my family and friends more often, and I don't regret moving at all.
• Liam has been teething also.  So the last few days, aside from getting over his little virus, he's been dealing with that.  Teething makes him CRANKY.  But, we love him anyway.

I don't know if it's the lack of sleep from being pregnant and having a baby, but I feel like I've really aged a lot over the last year or so.  It's a bit depressing, but I know part of the actual process.  Though I guess I look more tired than old really.  I don't know.  Just looking at old pictures and I just look so different.  

Who is ringing in the New Year with you?  Who do you wish could be with you, but isn't there?

A group of friends up in Sacramento is who I will be ringing in the New Year with.  I kind of wish that Ex and I were spending New Year's together, because I thought we'd be spending all our New Years together for the rest of our lives.  I also wish a couple of my girlfriends who are out of town right now could be there too, but I'll actually be seeing most of them in the next few days, so I'll survive without them :)

What's on your holiday wishlist?

A pair of tall boots.  I've been wanting them for a while, so hopefully either I'll get around to buying some, or I'll get some for Christmas.

What are some ways you save money? 
Submitted by Pixiemom.  

umm...i don't.  does drinking at a friends house before going out count?

If you could get everyone in the world to change their behavior in one way, what would you have them do differently?
Submitted by Ross.

Aside from like no more wars, which is an obvious answer, I would change it so that people didn't ever cheat on their significant other.  Think of how nice that would be.  I don't know about everyone else, but I've been cheated on before.  And it sucks...and it kind of messes with you and damages your trust even in later relationships to a small degree.  So it would be nice not to have to worry about that, and just know that it would never happen.

The last few days have, obviously, been difficult.  I went up to a friend's house on Saturday, after saying by to him while moving his stuff out.  It was very hard, saying goodbye.  I still love him dearly, and I still hope that he will eventually change his mind.  I spoke with him on Sunday evening.  I had called him cause he had called a friend of mine.  I was wondering why.  He had apparently told my friend how wonderful I was, and that I'd find someone great someday.  I told him how I had already found someone great.  Him.  That he is the one I wanted to be with.  Even if we never got married, as long as I could be with him, that is what I wanted.  Even if we were just dating now, and not engaged, to be with him.  He said, "Just give me time."  So that gave me a little bit of hope.  But he also said eventually I'd be ok.  So I am obviously trying to not get my hopes up about anything.  I don't want to think we'll be getting back together when he has no plans to ever do so.  

I tried to call him.  He did not answer.  He responded to my text, but would not pick up when I called.  His phone is now off.  He is at work.  I feel awful.  I feel stupid for calling more than once, but what can I say.  I was desparate to hear his voice.  Desperate for some contact.  At least he responded to my text, even if it was a rather short answer ("no"), about how he would not answer the phone right now.  I can't just end things like this.  I need some closure.  I ache for him to be in my life.  This is the worst feeling ever.  A nightmare.  Hardly seems real.  Just earlier this week I dropped off the deposit for our wedding site.  I don't have the heart to call and cancel the date.  I think cause I keep hoping that we'll talk, and decide to give things a try.  Maybe slowly.  Maybe not being engaged right now.  But to work on it.